that's how i feel when i see these crazy new wt study articles and the inane reasoning contained therein, and the indoctrination machines of meetings run by all those little hardened human cogs and the unending stream of propaganda we're pitched up against.
.. you could spend all your time working through those wt articles (see cedar's post on the latest 'new light') and refuting the stupidity, and yet most witnesses aren't even concerned with changes to the fds or 144 000 because like all of humanity they're too busy trying to scratch a living as it is.
such airy doctrine changes don't have any effect on their day to day lives and is thus irrelevant.
Julia -
The last paragraph of your opening 'rant', is ample evidence that you are solidly pointed in the right direction for any human.
That you, or anyone, pursuing such a life as you desire , should feel encumbered and not encouraged by that organization is truly a rebuke to their very existence.
I percieve that you are already free, as your path ahead is so clear that you can discribe it - and beautifully, I must say.
You are exactly what the WTS fears most.
this memorial was my 40th (minus a couple of yrs, df'd) and although i have faded as far as possible and still able to keep my family and friends it was the strangest and most reflective of all since learning ttatt.. i tried to focus on the talk to see if it was anything earth shattering but the only thing was the major focus on who should not partake.. i won't focus on the talk as many have already posted that and the fact that it was from a gb/fds outline it was the same everywhere.. i quickly started looking around at all the people wondering how many were like me totally awake like someone who wakes up from anesthesia during major surgery and feels immense pain, but know one in the room knows.. there must be many among us, we can't speak , move or share our pain we must endure.
that is truly hell.. when i looked around at the large crowd i saw many whom i love dearly and have had truly wonderful times with, ones that i would still gladly give my life for not as jdubs but just because of who they are.. .
these are good people who for the most part are just trying to be the best humans possible in an impossible situation.
I hope your loved ones join you.
Remember, many more will be following your lead
That casts a cheery glow.
I heated our house for a whole day with our old WT trash - and I got a really nice leather 'toolbox' out of the deal!
leaving the org was not a doctrinal choice for me as it was for many on this board.
i left mentally because of the boredom and then i physically left by being dfd.
i have been reading here for about a month or so and now i know i made the right decision.
Slavenomore -
Welcome friend. You and I have so very much in common.
It has always seemed too exhausting an enterprise, to commit the sad cult years to writing -
strangely that is what you have just done... and eloquently.
Thank you. GfG
gods word for us through jeremiah page 128 '..his mother bought a ram and a ewe.
he looked after them, and the ewe produced two lambs a year, so the flock began to grow..."early one morning while i was still in bed," he recalls, "i heard them bleating.
when i finally did, i saw a pack of wild dogs running away from my lambs, which had their bellies ripped open.
My daughter told me that as a kid, the idea of living forever terrified her.
Later as a young mother, she was looking for a suitable story for her first little girl in My Book of Bible Stories.. and just threw the book away, as there wasn't one account she thought fit.
Today all her kids are wonderful loving, young folks, the little gal who never heard from JW literature is a beautiful, happy 21 year old dynamo - just finishing up university!
Never take a child to a Kingdom Hall.
religious trauma syndrome: how some organized religion leads to mental health problems .
http://truth-out.org/news/item/15366-religious-trauma-syndrome-how-some-organized-religion-leads-to-mental-health-problems.
wednesday, 27 march 2013 13:20 by valerie tarico, alternet | interview.
Wonderful, Wonderful article - thanks so much for posting it !
My family - what's left of it - could be the poster child for this pathology.
''Religion in it's worst form, causes separation. ''
the witch hunt is on!
can't talk about it now.
but our thoughts and prayers go out to each and every one of you being hunted and harrassed by the gestapo i mean elders.. affectionately brother of the hawk.
Ha Amelia - You knew you were just too cute in that pink!
last night i found out a close jw friend of mine takes delight in watching animal torture.
i am an animal lover, and i dont know what to think.
i dont want to end our friendship because this friend has been very accepting of me.
Vienna -
Visit a provincial mental health facility , and have them file your information regarding the young man .
Ask them what can be done to help your friend - he needs professional help,
Provincial staff are caring and trained with every resources for assesment and treatment which he needs desperately (and maybe wanting, but as a cult member is afraid to stir the dragon)
I suggest this route over law enforcement (prosecution), or Humane Societies whose agendas are often co-opted towards publicity rather than help.
Please do this right away as much is already at stake for both your young lives ....
i'm a female jw who has been lurking for a little while but finally has the balls to post something.
i am in need of adivce and help.
i still feel a little nervous typing out these words on an "apostate" website.. i am a born-in jw, 4th generation.
Dear Elbear-
Welcome to you.
Things do get better. For a young one like you, a whole wonderful lifetime, in a beautiful world, of kind and generous people awaits your
participation. You are among friends.
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from my place of forgetting, and out of my utter despair and loneliness, i tap out my pathetic message desperately hoping that there is someone, anyone that might possibly hear ... .
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Oubliette -
There are many kind and thoughtful people here....Welcome.
